Words

Just a few words to move this blog on to a new spot. I am tired of the flowers!

I have not really had a lot to share lately.

To be honest, in many ways my life has been spectacularly mediocre. I don't mean the sweet family around me or the blessings God lavishes on me continually, just in my heart. I have been neither very obedient or very rebellious. I have been just ugly enough to feel conviction, yet not bad enough that anyone calls me out. I feel the weight of my sins of complacency and pride wrapped around my shoulders, yet I lack the conviction to scour them off and walk in freedom. I lack the muscle to be very good and enjoy the blessings, or very bad and enjoy the honesty. I find myself being sneaky in my disobedience. Finding ways to be barely bad.

Really, how horrid is all that.

I have to almost admire ones with the strength to let it all hang out and be very, very good or very, very bad. I just hide. I feel condescending when I am very good and guilty when I am very bad.

Of course, it is the Truth that I need. Lukewarm is disgusting to everyone. I need to pick a side of the fence and stop straddling!

Thanks for listening!